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Forgiveness is Happiness

One aspect of my personal mantra for this year is Forgiveness, and let
me tell you; it’s changed my life! For so many year, practically my
entire life, I’ve held grudges or not truly forgiven people that have
hurt me in the past and that definitely takes a toll on your spirit,
happiness, and peace of mind. As much as I’ve tried to fight the notion
that “not forgiving someone is like drinking poison and expecting them
to die”, I faced facts and accepted that to be true. Once I realized that I
needed to let go of the past and truly forgive, not just say it but
live in it too, my life became a millions times better. My spirt is more
calm and I definitely gained a peace of mind. 

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Back from Londontown!

My boyfriend and I took a weekend trip to London the 1st of December to check out the city and hang out with his best friend; it was amazing! The city of London has an old antique feel, but at the same time still reminded me of DC. 
And as soon as I stepped off the Express Train at Paddington Station, I immediately felt like I was traveling to Hogwarts! LOL! 
We met up with TB’s best friend and got a tour of the Spotify London office, which was really cool! There were Macbook’s everywhere as well as very inspirational quotes on the walls from influential artists. I also got to catch a Ping Pong match being held in the break room [oh the joy of working at a startup]! 
The food and drinks in London were so delicious!! We were on a mission to get the known “London Dish” of Fish n’ Chips, at least up until the 2nd day. Then, we had a cab ride with an Englishman that informed us that “nobody eats Fish n’ Chips, its more like Fish n’ Curry”, and after trying both I definitely see why! Fish n’ Curry is really, really good & a combination I don’t think I would have ever thought to try; which is probably why I ordered Fish n’ Onion Rings… 
I didn’t do as much drinking as the guys, but when I did have a drink in the Pup, I went with Cider. This particular Winder Cider made by a Sweden company and flavored with Apple-Cinnamon & Vanilla was my favorite! 
We also had Tapas at the Wacha restaurant and every piece of food they brought to the table was eaten in seconds! And their margarita was probably the best one I’ve ever had in my entire life! mmMmm! 
Dinner was also just as exquisite. One night, we had Chicken Paillard and a zesty salad from Automat. 
While we were there, we didn’t get a chance to visit too many “tourist” spots, but we did have some great experiences! By far my most memorable experience was in the Ice Bar.
We also got a chance to hang out at the Music Hack Day, which basically was 30+ Developers locked in a Conference Hall for 24 hours trying to buildmusic apps using APIs for companies like Spotify, Echonest, and Last.fm. TB learned how to do a little coding as well; that warmed my heart! 
The rest of the time was spent out on the town. Hoping from Pups, checking out different lounges, and enjoying the city around us! I was also really excited that I got to wear my new Wedges and the Cowl that I made right before the trip! 
It was really nice spending the first weekend in December in London and I definitely want to go back in the near future! Check out the rest of the pictures from the trip [HERE].

Today Was A Bad Good Day…

Today was definitely one of those type of days for me, a good bad day. Unfortunately, a not too favorable situation transpired in the beginning of my day and consequently it had me feeling not too hot first thing in the morning. As the day progressed the situation that had me down didn’t get too much better, but some how I managed to not let it consume me and allow some good in.

I work in an office and sit in close proximity to my co-workers, normally they can kind of tell when I’m having a bad day, but today they had no idea (as least until one of them asked me to try a Heart Beat app and my resting heart rate was 111 beats per minute!). I allowed myself to participate in the office discussions, which led to a few laughs, and I even went to lunch with my co-workers despite my ordeal. Granted, I had to force myself to eat because I normally lose my appetite when I am not cheerful, but I did it and ate half of my lunch! During the remainder of the afternoon I received a few pieces of good news, wonderful news actually, and I was quite grateful! Not leading my day with my emotions allowed other nice things to have the opportunity to come into life and I didn’t feel undeserving of them. Usually, if my day isn’t going good I shut out everything and everyone until who or what made me upset corrects it. However, I have realized that that doesn’t do any good and I allow someone or something other than myself to affect my happiness, which is quite detrimental.

By the end of the work day, even with all the good things happening I was still a little down about the situation from the beginning of my morning and with no immediate way to resolve that situation, I decided to relate my feelings to music. As I stepped foot into my car, I put my iPod on shuffle, hoping to find something to help me cope.

After putting my iPod on, I just drove, even with these gas prices, I just needed something to ease my mind. Skipping through about 150 songs or so, there were 3 songs that stood out and really helped me to make me feel better. One song it particular song, and actually the song that made me feel okay to come home with the strength to interact with my family, was “Breathe” by Lalah Hathaway. “Just breathe…”, I needed to hear those words bad and also the message in her song…

Some good neosoul always does the mind, body, and soul some good and “you gotta believe that this ain’t the end of the road”!